from the roots of my soul

it's funny how a smile can make everything alright again. no matter how bad a person is feeling, a simple smile can make others believe things really are okay. that, or people are just really stupid and don't know how to read when someone is really hurting. your pick.

sometimes it is so hard to totally put my feelings into words. sometimes i think i'm doing awesome and i get all positive...and sometimes i think it is all just one big lie. am i really okay? am i really happy? or am i lying to myself just so i won't have to look at see what is truly wrong? is there anything wrong at all? or am i making it all up for some sense of being "different" or "special"? emotions shouldn't be this hard to figure out.

jeremy, i'm glad we got to hang out tonight. it's been awhile since just the two of us have hung out. i totally could've fallen asleep though..we gotta watch that...hehe. and i promise when you come over there will be no nakedness (lol) i'll tone it down this once. love ya.

everyone should get this song--fiona apple--"never is a promise"---it's amazing.

ryan, yo. just a quick note to say you are one amazing guy. thats it.

okay, i believe it's bedtime. ziggy jo needs her sleep.