a pale september

i am not sure i feel much like writing because i am tired. but..i do need to say a few things i didn't say earlier because i was hurried. i went to the funeral place today. and it was much harder than i thought. i would never fully admit this to anyone, but it was very hard for me. to see death so closely..to see the impact it had on others..it was terrible. i don't think i'll be at the funeral tomorrow. forgive me, but it's much harder than i ever thought. there are no words to explain how i feel about it...i just can't deal right now.

the adventures of spending the night at lara's will not be forgotten! goodness...how many people can fit in one bed?

as with everyday, i got some new insight into life today. i really can't put it into words right now though...give me a day or two.

jeremy, thank you for the roses. seriously, that was the nicest thing you could have done for me. it's awesome to know you care.