1,297 steps to the new me

insecure. what a sad word. to say it in a sentence like "i'm insecure" or "he's insecure" sounds so huge. on some level, i think everyone is insecure...but the levels always vary. i used to be a a very insecure person. always doubting myself, and doubting how others feel. that has changed somewhat, but there are still little insecurites left to deal with. like my body for instance. now i know that most people feel at least somewhat insecure about how they look, and i'm no different. relationships too. there are always, always little things that may trigger some insecure feelings...and again, i'm no different. i would love to be a totally secure person, but i think that when someone is secure they tend to let their guard down somewhat and become very comfortable. and letting my guard down to everyone is not something i'm willing to do just yet.

strawberry slushes from sonic are good. i don't know what it so appealing about them...but they're just good. i've been eating a lot of vegetarian food lately too. i've always considered myself somewhat of a vegetarian, but i'm leaning more and more towards it now that i've been hanging with ryan and he's one. it's easier to stick to it when there is someone else doing it. i know..i should just do my own thing regardless. but it's like smoking. you really can't stop smoking if everyone around you does it and they don't encourage you not to. ryan can be my support group.

WORD OF THE DAY:

licentious

(adj.) morally or sexually unrestrained; having no regard for accepted rules, customs, or laws.

very interesting.

ryan, ummmmm. i thought you were going to write about me. i mean seriously, i write about you all the time. this isn't fair.