i have lost myself

it's all coming back. slowly. i am not very willing to deal with it, but i can feel it. the old hurt, the old feelings of anxiety. i don't know what triggered it this time, maybe it was all those bad thoughts running through my head last night. i couldn't sleep for a long time because my mind was consumed with so many things. all bad. am i a bad person? am i doing this for attention? is there something really wrong..or am i making it all up? i don't want to be around anyone right now. i just want to be alone.