so much activity, such little sleep...
but, finally. i have arrived home at an early hour and decided to update.
thursday: some of rick's friends decided to go up to nashville for a hockey game (and drive back the same night...ugh) and so i went along. i love football, and i love soccer, but hockey has never really interested me much.
well, after thursday, call me interested.
i don't know how many games i'll be watching on t.v, but i do know that seeing it live was pretty cool.
friday: you'd think i would have had some plans or something. but no. no plans, no party to attend, no nothing.
just some fun at chili's and taking a nap with rick til 3am.
today: not much went on today either. i went to church, went downtown, went for a long drive, ate ice cream, went to walmart and came home.
i wish i could write this in a better, more entertaining fashion for you. although honestly, in any other writing style, you wouldn't notice how tired i am.
yep, i'm beat.
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i've been thinking about getting married a lot lately.
it's really quite twisted. i'm not even nineteen yet, and it's all i've been thinking about for the last two weeks.
i just don't want to let life pass me by. i want to start the other part right now and ultimately, just want to be loved and love in return.
i used to seek out relationships. i used to want to be loved so badly, and feel those feelings, and say those magical words. i craved the feeling of being loved, and because of that, i ended up in some terrible relationships and situations.
now, i'm not seeking anything. i'm not craving anything, and i'm in no hurry to start something "major" serious.
so then, why has my mind been consumed with thoughts of love and happiness?
is my subconscious smarter than i am?
