it's time to start really living..
I feel so helpless.
Without going too far into detail, Rick is hurting. Badly. And there isn't a thing I can do about it. I can't be there to comfort him and I can't hug him.
Never before have my emotions been part of someone else's. I haven't cried because someone else was upset and crying unless it directly affected me. I'm used to being emotionally cold.
Tonight though, as I sat on the phone, I had tears in my eyes. To hear him so upset made me hurt for him..and it was terrible.
I can't wait until tomorrow night.
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All sad feelings aside, I expierienced something new tonight as well.
The hopeless self denial of falling in love.
Anyone would think I'm crazy if they knew the whole situation...but I don't care.
Rick already knows I'm crazy...