pure confusion with much thought
October 23, 2003
i've never been big on rules.i always hated being told what to do, what to wear, how to do my hair, and what i should believe.
i guess thats why i became somewhat of a teenage "rebel" at an early age. i did things that most kids my age didn't, said things to my parents i probably shouldn't have, and felt like i could do anything.
even now, i hate the rules. i hate having to stop and think about right and wrong and whether my actions are seriously going to have consequences.
i like living my life the way i want.
it's tough though, because now i feel like i'm living for someone else. life isn't all about me and my feelings anymore, it's about more than that.
*sigh*
i'm confused.