like the desert waiting for the rain...
And I was scared out of my mind.
As much as I like my stepmom, we've never had that close mother/daughter relationship. It's probably my fault, but I was never comfortable having one. I never felt like she wanted to give one either, and so, I just taught myself all the "girl" things growing up. I didn't ask advice, and she didn't give it.
Today though, I could have used a shoulder to lean on.
I looked through the phonebook for a woman doctor, called, made an appointment, and asked a zillion questions. All on the verge of tears. And all on my own.
To make it worse, I don't have anyone who will sit in the waiting room with me, hug me afterwards, and I have to do all of this on my birthday since it's my only day off.
I know that I shouldn't complain...but just once I wish I had my mom here to be with me.
